I am OK. I am Enough. I am Me.

Living as Me is no picnic. But doing that is all I really have. I can take on false identities, attempt new styles, new haircuts, new jeans, new bikes, new relationships, new spiritualities, new therapists,

But, its still me underneath. Still me under the skin. Still me wrestling, laughing, neurotisizing, loving, ruminating, playing, learning, aging, imagining, defending(myself), celebrating others, hoping.

But all Me.

My Soul, my True Self is always there. Close to Source, Creator, God. So close that ‘I’ sometimes get ‘us’ mixed up.

My Value is no small thing.

Today, I live as if it is.

The Way it Is

One morning you might wake up
to realize that the knot in your stomach
had loosened itself and slipped away,
and that the pit of unfulfilled longing in your heart
had gradually, and without your really noticing,
been filled in—patched like a pothole, not quite
the same as it was, but good enough.

And in that moment it might occur to you
that your life, though not the way
you planned it, and maybe not even entirely
the way you wanted it, is nonetheless—
persistently, abundantly, miraculously—
exactly the way it is.

by Lynn Ungar 11/28/15

Days of Love

Its been a while since I posted. Not sure why the urge has come to me today. Truth be told, there has been that nagging whispering to return for a few weeks now. So, many changes, seemingly so quickly.

Its Valentines Day and we are supposed to be celebrating with our main squeeze, our primary partner, our life long love. I am bucking tradition today, since I am currently separated from my spouse and wondering if it may be permanent.

But really that should not make any difference. I need to be loving myself, my source, my Higher Power that lives inside each and everyday.

Today I celebrate me. I give thanks for all I am, all that has been given to me, and for this life, without judgement. Clearing the cobwebs, and see the miracle of my unique essence.

Love for myself, is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 

 It does not dishonor others, its ok to be self-seeking when needed, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 

 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 

 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love for my True Self Never Ends….